Overdrive can become a constant companion. The imagined need of the mind is to complete goals. Who sets these goals?Is it part of our nature to be driven to the goal line? How do these patterns become set in our lives? As each day goes by do more goals begin to arise in ones mind? The message that I hear through mass media is that I need to budget goals of time, health ,wealth, career and even family life. You will notice that the key word might be budget.
Just writing a list begins to make my heart race. Women are dying of heart attacks almost at the same rate as men. Should we admire the person who accomplishes so many goals in one's lifetime? Should we push our children into overdrive? It is the illusion of the computing world that all moves smoothly through time into completion. The future is now. But all of my time has been spent in timely goals that I barely complete. I again am breathless.
The need to complete goals is part of life? I get up out of bed in the morning. Is my movement simply repetition of the day before? Yoga asks you to question what is the true you. Are you really happy in overdrive? What happens when you slow down long enough to simply listen to your breath? There are times when I sit in meditation listening to my breath that I want to get up and run away from the very process which is supposed to help me.
There it is again! Overdrive in my inner space has intruded into my mind. There are things that need to be done and stopping isn't one of them. Who do i blame? Is there blame for this state of mind?